And The Droning Engine Throbs In Time With Your Beating Heart

Why is it that my days always go to hell?

It never fucking fails.

Today started out fabulously. Jaime woke me up to go to Dorney, and it was so much fun. Voodoo is THE SICKEST ride ever, so I suggest you ride it. Forreal.

But like, just now I was talking to Randy. And I had wanted to see him tomorrow, but, of course, he has work and football and a thousand other things to do. He's still gonna come over, tomorrow night, but it's always the same thing; he comes here, falls right to sleep and then wakes up at the crack of dawn to go to work. And if it isn't that, he's in a rush to go somewhere else - like work, or football. I know it's what he has to do, and I appreciate all the time I DO get to spend with him, but... I just want my turn. I want a turn with happy, calm, relaxed Randy.

Oh well. I'll just have to suck it up and realize it's never gonna happen.

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Watch Me Unravel, I'll Soon Be Naked

See? I've already failed the daily blog. After one day. I am the definition of pathetic.

Eli is my new best friend. :D

Ummm... last night I went to the carnival. Kaleigh came home with me and it was a FANTASTIC time. We expressed our hatred and creativity all in one with this beautiful work of art right here:

Haha, anyway. This morning we were awoken by Jaime asking us to go to Canada. So yay. We might go to Canada sometime within the next few days.

Now I'm just waiting for something to happen so me and Jaim can hang out and go to the carnival... again. Yay. :D

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Close My Eyes, Let The Whole Thing Pass Me By

It's been over a year since I've used this blog, wow. Well, Stephen got one, so I decided to use mine again. What could it hurt?

Well. Since my last post, I've gone into remission, and have hair again. Yay. I also have an amazing boyfriend, Randy. He is my world. I love him more than anything, really. Just sayin'.

I'm trying to make this a daily blog. Doubt it'll work because I can never keep up these kinds of things. But hey.

Today overall kinda sucked. I don't do anything, like, ever. I felt like absolute shit. Not physically, but mentally. I was just drained. I didn't even want to THINK about leaving my room. It just... sucked. Randy was kinda able to talk me out of it, he can always make me feel better. [I give him so much credit for being able to put up with my shit. Honestly.]

I also think I may have PTSD. Apparently, it's very common amongst young adults with cancer. And it would totally explain my crazy mood swings, constant self-loathing and anxiety of doing anything remotely fun and/or social.

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6 Months And Counting...

Yeah, those headaches from my last blog? They turned out to be cancer. AML[eukemia] to be exact. So since then, I've spent almost all that time in a hospital. Nothing interesting really. Chemo, doctor errors and lots of morphine to sum it up.

POTC3 came out a week ago. I've seen it 3 times. Whoop whoop.

I'm making my way to San Francisco in October. I gotta plan everything out. Thoughts?

Little Red Corvette

So. Headaches, headaches, headaches. I'm about to go CRAZY. Luckily though, I'm going to the doctor on Wednesday; then I'm getting a CAT scan.

Since last blog, we've gone to the Albany show. Actually, the "WE" almost didn't. It started out great; Jaime, Kaleigh and myself got to the hotel around noonish, and we ran around doing our normal stupid shit. And we couldn't get the sauna to steam, WTF.

Okay, so, we planned on leaving at 6, since the doors opened at 7. 5:00 comes, and Kevin calls. I figured that meant he was almost here. Well, he was. But he had to turn around. WHAT THE HELL.

The girl that he and Taylor brought down, Natasha, didn't have permission to come. So her parents called and threatened to charge Kevin with kidnapping if he didn't turn around right there.

I cried.

An hour later, after lots of bargaining and arguing, we finally have a deal. Kevin's car miraculously broke down - AGAIN - so there was no way he'd get back to Canada.

So yeah, the show was absolutely AMAZING- they played 6 To 8! Even though I was pretty much passing out the whole time- hey, it's alright, I had Taylor holding me up.

We got to see Nick again, which was awesome. We met a few people, but not as memorable as Rochester.

After the show...
We were laying down on the sidewalk behind the venue, and some girl was like, "Oh you guys look so cute! Can I take a picture?"

Also, on a somewhat related note, I'm trying to get myself to Canada for Christmas. Anyone wanna help me out?

AFI mystery is back. It's crazy stupid. But hey, it keeps us busy.

More to come...

Best weekend ever? I'd say so.

Okay, one of them. The only thing that ties with it was Bamboozle where I met Kevin and Kayla, and saw my first AFI show.

Which brings me to the important part.

Rochester over the weekend. Not only did I see what I believe was the best AFI show I've experienced yet, I got to meet the band. It was beyond amazing. The boys were SOO nice to us, and it was something that I don't think anything will ever be able to compare to it.

We almost didn't make it though; first Kevin and Kayla got pulled over in Binghamton because their windows were tinted. Luckily, the officer liked AFI, so he let them off. So we were an hour late leaving, and then there was an accident on the highway. But we made it eventually. Afterwards, Kevin's car battery died, but hey- we'd got the most important part finished.

It was wonderful to meet so many DF'ers- Nick, Emily, Christine and many others!

Can't wait for next weekend- going to Albany. We'll see how it turns out...

If only pure sweetness was offerred...

It's been a while. Since the last time I've posted...

STD's demo finally came out! It's totally amzing. You can check them out here.

I turned 15. Woo.

I also joined Despair Faction! I feel almost complete now. All I gotta do is meet AFI [and Smith] and I will be able to die happy.

Guard started again. We think we may become a football band. Which is cool. Because that means much less practice and such.

Jade posted a blog, and I was in the top 10 comments. Woo, go me. =)

I got Black Sails In The Sunset for my birthday. I've fallen in love with it. I'm still an AoD person though.

Carnival! I went like everyday to the one in Tannersville and Mt Pocono. It was great. I made lots of mew friends- Aaron, Geo, John, Andrew, and other people. Plus I saw like everyone in Mt Pocono.

That's all for now...