And The Droning Engine Throbs In Time With Your Beating Heart

Why is it that my days always go to hell?

It never fucking fails.

Today started out fabulously. Jaime woke me up to go to Dorney, and it was so much fun. Voodoo is THE SICKEST ride ever, so I suggest you ride it. Forreal.

But like, just now I was talking to Randy. And I had wanted to see him tomorrow, but, of course, he has work and football and a thousand other things to do. He's still gonna come over, tomorrow night, but it's always the same thing; he comes here, falls right to sleep and then wakes up at the crack of dawn to go to work. And if it isn't that, he's in a rush to go somewhere else - like work, or football. I know it's what he has to do, and I appreciate all the time I DO get to spend with him, but... I just want my turn. I want a turn with happy, calm, relaxed Randy.

Oh well. I'll just have to suck it up and realize it's never gonna happen.

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Watch Me Unravel, I'll Soon Be Naked

See? I've already failed the daily blog. After one day. I am the definition of pathetic.

Eli is my new best friend. :D

Ummm... last night I went to the carnival. Kaleigh came home with me and it was a FANTASTIC time. We expressed our hatred and creativity all in one with this beautiful work of art right here:

Haha, anyway. This morning we were awoken by Jaime asking us to go to Canada. So yay. We might go to Canada sometime within the next few days.

Now I'm just waiting for something to happen so me and Jaim can hang out and go to the carnival... again. Yay. :D

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Close My Eyes, Let The Whole Thing Pass Me By

It's been over a year since I've used this blog, wow. Well, Stephen got one, so I decided to use mine again. What could it hurt?

Well. Since my last post, I've gone into remission, and have hair again. Yay. I also have an amazing boyfriend, Randy. He is my world. I love him more than anything, really. Just sayin'.

I'm trying to make this a daily blog. Doubt it'll work because I can never keep up these kinds of things. But hey.

Today overall kinda sucked. I don't do anything, like, ever. I felt like absolute shit. Not physically, but mentally. I was just drained. I didn't even want to THINK about leaving my room. It just... sucked. Randy was kinda able to talk me out of it, he can always make me feel better. [I give him so much credit for being able to put up with my shit. Honestly.]

I also think I may have PTSD. Apparently, it's very common amongst young adults with cancer. And it would totally explain my crazy mood swings, constant self-loathing and anxiety of doing anything remotely fun and/or social.

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